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new journal. go comment and I'll add you
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[30 May 2004|10:19pm] |
summer is still going great.
other night frankie's party.. cool shit
then tay's.. weird but damn
I was seeing spaceships and shit the whole night.
spent the night at torie's with the girls
shrek 2 last night with john and torie
washed lola
layed out in a coldesac with josh and matt last night
saw a shooting star
tonight.. going fishing with josh matt and rob
meghan is coming over
it's already 10:30 I can't believe my mom is letting me go
I have a new cousin! she was born this afternoon. aaww I'm excited.
yeah a lot more has happened, but I'm fucking sick of livejournal and I really honestly think this will be my last update for a very long time.
<3
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tuesday night.. spent the night at meghan's.. watched gothika, good movie.
yesterday..
beach with ashleigh, liz, and meghan
got there and saw a lot of people including
maegan L., who I was ver happy to see
especially since it was her birthday!!
chilled at the beach, got LaBellas.. I told Rocky never
to close LaBellas for that long again.
Headed over to Harborside pool
chilled there with some people
fun fun
walked back to my house with caitlin and liz
they left, Ashley moniack called..
she came over after work
went to meghan's
marissa stopped by
left and drove around the W section, smoked a bowl
went to Tay's.. smoked a lot more
came back to my house, tried to watch a movie
then went to bed.
haha last night we were passing dunkin donuts and I had the munchies
really bad.. and I remember just being like "DUNKIN DONUTS, PULL IN THERE, NOW!" and I got like 12 chocolate glazed donut holes. damn
ashley and meghan are still sleeping,& I think me and Ashley are going to the beach today and meghan has cheerleading or some shit.
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[25 May 2004|05:39pm] |
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beach yesterday
then back to my house with liz
tennis
chinese food
torie's
hung out with john and her and liz
saw a dolphin again, (I'm on a roll)
walked over to tyler's
hung out a little with him and adam
came home, tried to go out again
got caught
went to bed
woke up at the crack of dawn
dropped liz off at work
came home
slept until 1
kept getting calls
woke up for an hour
went back to sleep until 5
now sitting here waiting to figure out something to do
&damn do I have a crush.
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yesterday went to john's graduation party, hung out there with torie, josh, mark, and john r. It was fun.. haven't really hung out with those boys in a while and me and john got to play with play doh. haha
stopped by bruce P.'s party.. saw tyler and just sat around there for a little.
Came home, showered, then headed over to meghan's and me, her, liz, and ashleigh went over to Zach's.. then went to pick up Tyler at Adam's, went back to Zach's to get liz and headed over to J Mc's.
Got there and we were all just chillin and shit, then we wereleaving and this girl came up to me when we were outside and she was like "Did you flick me off at steak n shake the other night?" and I was like I don;t know, did I? And she started punching me. Meghan and Ashleigh stepped in though I guess, and I got up and she was gone. Everyone was really nice about it and a couple of girls went to go find her haah but she was gone so whatever.
I put ice on my eye right away so this morning it's swollen but at least not black and blue, and I have a cut going down my cheek. It kind of hurts to blink too haha
Damn girls are fucking stupid aren't they?
today is Maegan C's birthday and even though I haven't talked to her in a long time.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAEGAN! I love you.
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[23 May 2004|12:58am] |
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ahhh this summer has been so fucking great, and it just started. Last night went to Tay's with Meghan and Ashleigh, shit was straight.. had fun. Oh before that my mom took me, singling, christina, and meghan out to dinner to celebrate our "graduating".. haha my mom is so nice. Anyway so last night I don't really remember too much but eh whatever.
Today went to the beach with meghan and called up liz and torie to come meet us.. laid out for a long ass time, went in the water, chilled and shiiiiit, I am so brown, it rocks. This chinese lady walked past me and was like "nice suntan" oh yeah.
Headed down to daytona with liz torie and sing to go to graduation.. saw some people and then went to burger king.
Josh and Matt kidnapped me and took me back to PC with them and drove around a little and then met up with A. Shelver and Meghan at steak n shake, made a phone call for Meghan, because I love her and got some shit straightened out. Headed back to my house and me, Josh, and Matt went down to the docks and sat there and talked and shitttt, then when we were walking back to the car, we heard a dolphin and that was awesome. uh came back here, and watched tv and they left a little while ago. Meghan was supposed to stay the night, but plans fell through so oh well. nice sober night, I enjoyed it.
Tomorrow.. beach maybe? who knows.
CONGRATULATIONS JOHN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & Josh and Mike and Ryan and everyone else who graduated.
ahhh I love the summer time.
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| I LOVE THE SUMMER |
[21 May 2004|12:40pm] |
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yesterday was fucking awesome in every way possible.
last night got off to a shakey start with liz marissa torie siobhan andrew and singling, but we pulled shit together, and ended up having a reallllly fun night.GOOD TIMES
Woke up this morning and really didn't remember too much.
I do remember I said a lot of stupid shit though.
haha I love waking up and sitting down with everyone and you just talk about what happened and you remember certain things, oh it's great fun.
My mom gave me 100 dollars for making it through another year of highschool and for my FCAT scores. trruuee.
She wants to take me and some friends out tonight and treat us to dinner, so shit I think I'll do that.
Tennis lesson today..
then hanging ou with Liz Ashleigh and Meghan tonight I believe, heading out to check some parties and coming back here and taking the jello shots we made today.
This summer is off to such a good start.
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[20 May 2004|05:05pm] |
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TODAY WAS AWESOME!
woke up 20 minutes before I had to leave, but I managed to throw myself together, I'm impressed.
School flew by, Phelan's exam wasn't as bad as I expected, & we got our term papers back.. I got a B on mine!!! So happy
After school me and Torie went to the beach.. hung out there until around 4 with everyone. Singling, Ashleigh, Siobhan, Liz, Christina, Rocio, Sittichai, Black, all of the other boys, and just everyone, everyone was up there.
Went into the water for a long time with siobhan and marlie hahah and played in the sand with them. had a sand throwing fighttt. MEGA WEDGIE! what's up! hahaah goooood fucking times
Rolled up blasting some spice girls.. shiiiiitt..
Now I'm home waiting for Liz to come get me and we're going to Meghan's.. & might I add tonight is going to be fucking GREAT. fun times to be had, definetely.
I CAN'T BELIEVE SCHOOL IS FINALLY OUT! goddamn I'm brown.
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[19 May 2004|08:16pm] |
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Definetely did well on my world history honors exam. wooooo
Got a yearbook and lots of sigs haha I'm so gay
After school- drove the convertible to the mall.. hell yeeahhh
New shirts from A&F
New bra and undies from Victoria's Secret ;]
Tennis Lesson.. not a good idea in the middle of the fucking day
running, in the heat.. thought I was dieing.
Came home and watched MTV while stupid ignorant fucks put new carpet in the upstairs.. took them FOREVER. and they left all my shit unplugged and blah how fucking irritating!!
Torie stopped by for a little :) oh wow I love her
Mom and Nick went out to dinner at Martin's and brought me back KFC. huh.
I hate Nick :]
Tomorrow beach!!!! last day of school!!!!! meghan's house!!!!!
so excited
oh. to put the icing on the cake for my day my mom just walked out of her room, NAKED. and Nick is here. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?
I'm going to throw up.
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Last full day of school today, didn't feel like it.
I did really well on my FCAT. I killed that shit, son.
This summer will be a lot of fun, because I'm not going out of town as much as I usually do.
Thursday going to the beach with Christina/Singling/Rocio/Raquel?
Thursday night.. Meghan's house!!! I'm excited
I'm taking Torie to NC with me this summer.
tennis lesson tomorrow, I have like 3 a week now. wooo
My digital camera is working again, look for pictures soon.
I feel like I don't know her anymore.
I really believe the stars now.
I love you all
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hahahaha everyone ignore my update from earlier, I did it at school using altavista, translator, because as you know.. livejournal is blocked, so it made my update come out really weird.
Anyway! Yesterday was good, after Torie dropped me off she called me back and told me we were running errands, so we went to wal-mart, then had lunch at woody's so we got to see Sioboner working, she looked adorable:), after that we went to the pet store, and then back to Torie's. Matt and Josh stopped by, :).. then I jumped in the pool and ashleigh and liz came over and we raced them to baskin robbins, hit liz's cone out of her hand muhahha.
Today was good, had tennis after school and now I have a nice big blister on my thumb. I swear Vladmir is going to kill me with all running. My aunt came and picked me up, I'm so happy she lives here now, I love her, she's so fucking cool. She was telling me she doesn't care what I do when I go out, as long as I come home and let her know I'm alive. She was also telling me how I can whoever I want spend the night, she doesn't even have to know.. guys and everything. We can also have "a few beers" as long as we stay in.
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. I kind of want to settle down with a boyfriend. but no games. hah that should be tough.
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Yesterday:
-woke up, took a walk with my mom along the intracoastal. damn she's a speed racer, I could hardly keep up.
-got home, talked to Torie on the phone, took a shower, then she came and picked me up and we headed off to the mall.
-got to the mall, saw Ashleigh and Liz, and a bunch of other people.
-made torie go into AE and AF, AND BUY STUFF!! wooo
-My mom gave me her credit card and some cash and a blank check.. so I had fun, I got 2 shirts, a necklace and sunglasses from AE, a skirt from AF, bracelet, necklace, and earrings from wet seal, and I think that's it. OH! a pair of really cute shoes
-Me, Liz, and Torie hit up the candy store and got big bags of candy
-drove home listening to spice girls, nsync, mariah carey.
-came back to my house, torie went home, and liz stayed and hung out with me for a little.
-torie came and picked me back up and we went to siobhan's.
-got to siobhans, beat each other with bats, and just dicked around
-went to some kid, pat's house? stayed there for a short while and left
-met up with perry, dj, and tj at winn-dixie, and then followed them to dj's house out in bumfuck egypt and just chilled, it was straight
-got home around 1, woke up at 9 this morning and me and torie headed out.
hm so now I'm home and I think I'm going back to bed.
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a) he didn't read my previous update
b) he did, and didn't have anything to say to it.
today:
-last day for seniors. I'll miss John and Ryan a lot but I'll see them around.
Mike walked into Ms. Phelan's while I was in there to say goodbye, it was so sad.
-after school went to the mall with Renee&Teva. Gooood times, went to A&F, spent like an hour in there, got 2 shirts, then headed over to AE and got a really cute purse. I had so much fun with those girls <3 Saw Maegan L with her special friend ;]
-I was going to go spend the night with Teva and Renee, because Liz ended up not being able to do anything :(, I miss her, then I was going to go stay the night with Torie but plans fell through, so my mom had to come home from Nick's. oh well, she needs to give me a chance to regain her trust, by letting me stay home, idk.
-My aunt is moving here Sunday, I kind of don't want her to, because I don't deal well with change, it makes me sad to know I don't really have a reason to go back to North Carolina anymore, the place where I grew up for 10 years. I hate change
I miss a lot of people, like Nikki, Maegan, Ashley, Torie, Siobhan, Liz, Matt, Rocio, Raquel, Christina (even though I hate her. hahah) just people I haven't hung out with lately and I need to. I'm really glad I started hanging out and talking to Maegan L and Renee again though, because I used to be best friends with those girls and I didn't really realize how damn much I missed hanging around them. I don't know, I'm just unbelievably lucky to have all the friends I do have. but enough of this stupid update. I'm going to go watch a movie, and enjoy a nice relaxful evening, haha how gay.
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I read something today that really upset me, and I'm not exactly sure why.
It makes me sad to know that someone I care about very much, has a very apathetic way of thinking. I guess I always knew it, but to see it written out made me sad. And maybe it's really stupid that I'm still holding on to my feelings for this person. I wish I knew exactly what went wrong, I guess a lot of it's my fault. I have this thing, I guess it's pride, or stupidity. I won't talk to the person unless they talk to me first, perhaps it's some kind of subconcious hard-to-get mind game I play? I don't know, I don't really handle things very well, and I act stupid when it comes to being involved with someone or whatever. I messed up a lot, or maybe he just moved on completely. Which I wouldn't blame him for doing. I'm so confusing. I also feel stupid for even writing about it right now, I suppose I shouldn't even bother, there isn't a point to writing this, just to get it off my chest. But there's so much I want to say, but could never possibly get it out, and have it all make sense. Only Meghan can do that sort of thing. haha
And you could say I'm stupid and that I have no reason to care about you as much as I do, because you've said something like that to me before, a long time ago, but when it all comes down to it, who is to say what events or thoughts or feelings make someone care so much. I care, that's all that matters. If I was lieing, I wouldn't have cared for as long as I have. And it doesn't matter how long we go without talking or seeing each other, I feel the same.
There was no real reason to writing all of that except, like I said, to get some things off my chest. I don't expect a response really, but if you read this I hope you know that I do care, and it's not bullshit, and I'll care about you regardless if you want to believe it or not. I think I'm trying to say something else too..
but I don't know how to just write that here.
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Today was so good
really bad hair day, which would normally throw my whole day off, but not today, oh no sir. hm, anyway
Skipped 3rd with like half my class because we had some dickhead sub so we went to all the lunches me and siobhan aint never scurred, oh no we were terrified. hhaha hadda be there.
Came home after school, passed out and then my mom came home and took me to the ortho to get my retainer tightened, yeah I have to wear it ALL the time now. But I'm not going to because I have a lisp with it in. hahah
uhh then I went to dunkin donuts and my mom lost her wallet. Came home, and torie and maegan L came over. WOW I missed Maegan L a lot, she had been e-mailing me lately saying she missed me and we should hang out and I'm sooo glad we did. So we hung out here for a little then went to lucky buffet, my momma's treat, ate a lot of food, then torie dropped me off at home (listening to old school nsync in the car, hell yeah)
Went to play tennis at 7:30, got a new instructor, his name is Vladmir. He's russian, accent and everything. awesome. Anyway so I've never ran so much in my life, but he said I was talented (he probably just wants to get paid) but my mom even said she's never seen me hit better. So him and my mom joined forces and have now made arrangements for me to take lessons 3 times a week. This man is a slave driver, damn. But it was fun at the same time, all my stress is gone. He sort of weirded me out a little bit, because he kept wanting to give me his home phone number to talk about "tennis, music.. anything" I was like hmm no buddy you're a little too old for me. He's an AWESOME instructor, so I hope he doesn't end up being a pedophil because that would be a shame. idk but I just typed a hella lot, I can't believe school is almost out. I'm so excited!
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I hate Nick. stupid fat fucking asshole. I can't believe he yelled at me yesterday like he was my dad or something.
I miss my dad, I realized I don't even have a relationship with him, it's more of a friendship.. he's not even like a dad, he's like an older brother I chill with, I need a dad. boo hoo, I'll go cry about it.
Today was pretty shitty, but I went home with Torie and we got icecream and talked and I always realize how much I miss her when we hang out randomly. make sense? maybe not.
I've been really nostalgic lately, I went to play tennis tonight with my mom, I haven't played in like a year, it felt good, I realized how much I love playing. But I was sad, because Dave moved to Colorado, and the whole time playing I was thinking of carrot and maegan and our good times playing tennis last year. AND DAMN AM I TIRED! shit son I was hittin those balls left and right, got some anger out.
I'm a tad rusty, need some practice. I wish maegan would come play with me :(
Why has everything changed so fucking much since last year? Sure there are great parts about this year I wouldn't trade for anything, but last year.. I'll always miss.
Whatever, shit changes, and you can't do anything about it so I guess I just have to be happy at least I have those memories to remember always and blah blah blah.
Well I raised my D to a B in 1st period. go ahead and tell me how fucking cool I am.
I can't believe this is the last full week of school, and friday is the last day for seniors. Wow I don't want them to leave, especially John!!!! He can't graduate, it's not right.
Big test tomorrow in Phelan, so I'm off. I LOVE YOU! god I'm gay
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When you're constantly told that you cause grief all the time, and that you are rude and mean, you start to believe it. So maybe I should just come to terms with everything my mom and other relatives tell me. I'll just settle with the fact that I'm mean and cold hearted, because even when I try not to be, I'm wrong somehow. How do they expect me to get better when it's never good enough? My friends mean the most to me, and I try so hard to be a good friend, but I'm moody and irritable, and I'm sorry for that. All I can do is try to do better, and I'm working on it. It sounds stupid, but I almost feel like I'd feel so much better if I had a boyfriend or something, but that shouldn't affect me that much, so maybe that has nothing to do with anything at all. I wish I wasn't so mean to the people I love. Is it really only teenage drama?
I'm sorry for everything.
but sorry loses its meaning once it's been said too many times.
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I felt like I had the flu yesterday, school was horrible.. but it was funny when Singling had to do the quiz in 1st period because she was stoned.
Last night I went to Cuppie's with Meghan and Singling, a lot of people ended up showing up, had a water balloon fight, attacked people with silly string. It was fun. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUPPIE!!!!!
Got back to Singling's with Siobhan and Meghan, and Andrew came over. He drank, we smoked. We really wanted to drink, but he only had 8 beers, oh well. Anyway we sat down for like 30 minutes in a circle just cracking up, it was great. A couple of people stopped by for a little. it was straight
Everyone fell asleep around 1 and then Andrew woke me up at 3 and made me go to Steak n Shake with him. It was weird we were the only people in there. Got home around 4, and passed out.
Woke up this morning and threw pillows at each other, ran around the house, wake n bake, then went to Denny's.
Now I'm at home, and I'm probably going back over to Singling's in a little.
Have fun at prom tonight Torie & Christina, and everyone else who's going
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hmm so today I was dying all day because of my fucking allergies.
Left school a little early.. came home, watched the Last Samurai. realllly good movie.
came over to singling's and her sister took us to wal-mart so I could get a shirt for my project and some other shit.. came back ate some gooood chinese food that singling's mom made. I love oriental people ,I really do.
SO today was really good though, minus the whole me feeling like shit, but I got a 96 on my History test this morning, a B on my Julius Caesar oral presentation, a 100 on my group presentation in English, and a 5 on my FCAT writes. woo
I'm spending the night at singling's tonight, and then tomorrow night too. Going to Cuppie's bday and shit tomorrow. This weekend is going to be muuucchh fun!!! I'm excited.
FRIENDS FINALE TONIGHT! how sad
life is good, true.
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another lovely day.
school went by reallllyyy slow, even though it was a half day.
came home, got the big screen yeayuh
meghan and singling came home with me
got pretty fucked up
torie stopped by
took a nap
sittichai stopped by for a second
watched peter pan again
went to singling's and ate A LOT of good chinese food, and laughed a lot. which was fun.
Now I'm sitting here with meghan waiting for her dad to come pick her up
this weekend, oh I'm so excited.
thanks for your apathy. bitch.
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